depression

Distorted Thinking

Have you ever started a day and you just don't feel there? Your mind is somewhere else, your body is exhausted or just can't do anything right, and you're left standing there, wide-eyed, saying something like: "I'm seriously not here today."

This could mean you're just over-stressed, or have too much going on. But maybe your lack of focus/strength/power/energy comes from the fact that it's leaking out in other areas of your life? Maybe the way you are thinking about a situation in your life is consuming your focus/strength/power/energy?


 

Living through Monumental Loss

As performers, we wear our hearts on our sleeves. We put everything out there. We fall in love quickly with everything, because everything serves as inspiration to our gifts. We read in between the lines to try and help ourselves grow as artists. We over analyze, we listen to critiques and sometimes take them personally. We build things up in our minds, to help motivate our focus and drive, and we believe in what we do and who we are.

These are all wonderful qualities. They make us strong. They make us able to do what thousands of people will never be able to do - stand in front of thousands of people and perform.

But these qualities also make us extremely vulnerable.

As artists, our motto has always been: "You have to go there to know there." (Quote from Zora Neale Hurston's Their Eyes Were Watching God.) If we were expected to portray a depressed young girl, we needed to understand what that felt like. If we were to portray an overjoyed, confident go-getter, we needed to live that first, before we could convince someone that we were that.

But making yourself go there, making yourself feel everything, is not always the easiest responsibility. We have to breathe through the lows, and be careful not to get addicted or live only for the highs. It's a balancing act that takes dedication, self-awareness and patience.


 

Happiness is a Rather Large Task

Within the last two years we have realized something that we were never told would be our own responsibility. Our parents, our school teachers, our Sunday school teachers, the girl who taught us how to swim, our dance instructors, the teenagers who came in as part of the DARE program telling us to "just say no" to drugs, our college professors: Nobody, not a single one of those, told us.

How were we supposed to know we are responsible for our own happiness!


 

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